I really struggled with letting myself have a burger. It just feels…too..I don’t know. Forbidden? Off limits? Naughty? Indulgent? Like if I eat it I will be 250 lbs again.
When, in reality, I ran this morning. I ran six miles. I didn’t get my protein shake. Breakfast was a handful of life cereal. Lunch was a serving of greek yogurt. My calories were low.A burger wasn’t going to break my calories. And even if it were, so what for one day?
I really dislike my mind. How it makes me feel guilty. How extreme it is. I have a problem with food.With feeling like I deserve certain things, with guilt, with fear. I might always struggle with food. But I don’t want to be afraid to eat.